Well the short answer is that once you've been taken by a man and used as a girl whether willingly or not, and my very first time was quite definitely a 'not' as I was raped, you'll never think of yourself as any sort of a man ever again. So I picked myself up, powdered and groomed myself with what was left of me and ta da, here I am all nyloned and perfumed looking as close to that of a real girl that I could. So be kind and think about what it took for me to finally get this far, OK? π